I got a message on facebook today about my looming 10 year high school reunion. It will be happening in September, & I have to reply with whether I plan to attend or not. I’ve been contemplating this reunion for years, wondering: would I or would I not go?
There is the curiosity to see what my old classmates have been up to, but I already know what a lot of people are up to, simply because of facebook. The people that I was friends with in highschool, whether we’re friends now or not…for the most part I am connected to them online so I have the option to speak to them if I so desire, and I am able to “catch up” and see what they’ve been doing by looking at their info & pictures on facebook.
Maybe I have a pessimistic view on the whole thing, but I feel like reunions are just an excuse for people to brag about how great their life is and to show off to old classmates. I don’t have much to brag about, I think the best thing I’ve got is that I’ve seen/experienced some of the world & I got out of my hometown. A large majority of the people I went to highschool with are still there…they’ve never left. At the end of the day though, I am the same person I was in my teenage years. I’m just as quiet and shy as I was then, if not more now. I still get nervous whenever I go somewhere new or meet new people. I already know how I would feel walking into a reunion. I would feel anxious, and that I’m being judged. I suppose I need to decide whether it’s worth it or not. Do I want to look back and focus on what I haven’t done yet that my classmates have, or do I want to look forward and not worry about what other people have accomplished and just worry about my own life path & my timing. I’ll consider going, but I think I’ve already made my mind up.
I was pretty darn stylish don’t you think? Totally a fashion designer in the making, haha!